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Perfect abasement, thorough self-contempt had broken all my courage, and I could have cried like a child. What I said, or how I comforted myself after, I know not; but my first consciousness came to me as I felt myself running at the top of my speed far upon the road towards Lisbon.
I cried in my heart "they mean 'God save our shops! Liars! They keep up willingly the useful calumny, that their slaves and victims are disloyal as well as miserable!" I was utterly abased no, not utterly; for my self-contempt still vented itself not in forgiveness, but in universal hatred and defiance.
Another practically sleepless night, peopled with images of horror, had decreased her stock of sane self-control, already lessened by long conflict of feeling and the pressure of self-contempt. Now, as she lay listening for Aldous Raeburn's ring and step, she hardly knew whether to be angry with him for coming so late, or miserable that he should come at all.
At that word "deception," spoken with such self-contempt, the color flashed back into Hilda's face as suddenly as if she had been struck by a whiplash. She bit her lip and looked down at her hands, which were clasped tightly in front of her. "Could you could you sit down and talk about it quietly, Bartley, as if I were a friend, and not some one who had to be defied?"
I said to myself grimly, at the corner of Hamilton Place, and it flashed through my brain, with a mixture of self-contempt and pity, that my last thought before the end would be one of sordid satisfaction because a fortnight ago I had reluctantly paid an accident assurance premium.
Philip had been in torment first the torment of an irresistible hatred of Kate. He knew that this hatred was illogical, that it was monstrous; but it supported his pride, it held him safe above self-contempt in being present at the wedding.
I felt I was blushing under my skin; but I was determined to brave it all out, to hide from every living soul my own vexation and self-contempt. Once I caught a telegraphic signal exchanged between my neighbour and Miss Molasses, after which she seemed more at ease, and went on with her dinner in comfort.
With rage in his heart and their laughter, their mocking, triumphant laughter, in his ears, he sprang down the steps. A coward! That was what he must seem to them. A coward's part, that was the part they had seen him play. Into the darkness, into the night, what mattered whither, when such fierce anger boiled within him? Such self-contempt. What mattered whither when he knew how he had failed!
To use the paper-knife, or even to read the periodicals with which she had presented him, was to renew the bitterness of his remorse; and as he was alone in the compartment, he passed the day staring at the landscape in impotent repentance, and long before he was landed on the platform of St. Enoch's, had fallen to the lowest and coldest zones of self-contempt.
It belongs to the same order of ideas as the 'Pilgrim's Progress. In this map one sees the 'States of Charity, the 'Province of Fervour, the 'Empire of Self-Contempt, and other countries belonging to a vast continent, of which the centre is the 'Kingdom of the Love of God, connected to a smaller continent that of the world by a narrow neck of land called the 'Isthmus of Charity. In the continent of the world are shown the 'Mountain of Ingratitude, the 'Hills of Frivolity, the territory of 'Ennui, of 'Vanity, of 'Melancholy, and of all the evil moods and vices to which men are liable.
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